today was the first match against fairfield for the team, and though i'm not part of the competition squad, i am glad that we won. good job brothers.

now, to get into the team actually is 'an uphill task' for me, as my coach says. and well, now that i am not in the team, i dont feel really all that disappointed. i joined basketball late last september, and was way behind the rest of them, but i climbed up and stood a chance, no matter how small, at getting into the team. for that, i'm happy with myself already.

some people ask me whether i'm disappointed at not getting into the team. the honest answer is yes, but i'm never gonna take the self-pitying route and say, "damn, i could have done this better." anyway, i know i tried my best. please dont pity me for not getting into the team. people do fail, sometimes. and so, i'm not going to pity myself either. if i dont make it this year, i still have two more years. next year willl be less likely, because of me being in the junior year of the division. i'm aiming 2008.

and if i dont get it? life isn't basketball alone. i'll pick myself up, and move on, whatever the outcome.

i'm starting to do my weights consistently now, or maybe its just the spare time i have from not going for trainings as much as i used to. now, everything's gonna change. i am what i am. not what i was.

i'll go for the bullseye.